See you real soon baby Avina!!:):*

Hello my dearest Avina Banu! It's June 27 2014. I am exactly 41 weeks pregnant with you. It's 9:20pm. Today your daddy and I went to the hospital to get things checked out because here at Royal Columbian Hospital they usually induce babies at 41 weeks but we wanted to give you a few more extra days to see if you would come to the world yourself!:) The non stress test showed you were doing great and the ultrasound also showed you have plenty of water to swim in! So we are sitting on the bed right now, kinda just waiting. I do have some cramping and backpain so we are hoping I'll go into labour before Monday, Canada day to have you induced. Daddy Maysam is making you an email address so we can send pictures of you and we'll give you the password one day so you check it out yourself and see your journey on days you may not remember:) So my dear I just wanted to say... It's been the best experience in my life being pregnant with you for 10 plus months. I have tried to do my best physically and mentally so you would have a little stress. But I am not perfect, so I am sorry if for any reason me sitting through classes after a long day at work made you tired, and I am sorry if sometimes my emotions got the best of me. But I want you know, your daddy and I love you so very much. We eargly wait for your arrival and can't wait to start our life with you. We can't wait to hold your tiny hands and kiss your beautiful face and cuddle with your tiny body and million other things. Not sure how old you are when you are reading this. But I hope you read this when you are old enough to be able to capture the exicted we feel right now! Hope to see you real soon baby Avina!! XOXO Mommy Maryam & Daddy Maysam

Salam azizam!

Hello my dearest baby! Its May 31 2014, and you are exactly 37 weeks and 1 day old in my belly. I am sorry I was unable to write a blog during the course my pregnancy with you, but I thought I could at least write one recap of all the major events thus far. We are expecting you to make your arrival sometime in the next 20 days. Your daddy and I are thrilled to see your beautiful face and start our journey of becoming 3. Your dad and I have been married for 9.5 living years. We love eachother do dearly and we hope that you will feel the love as well. During the course of the past 9 months we have been doing a lot. I found out I was pregnant with you on October 2014. It's important for me to let you know that we planned wanting you last year around August when we were in Mexico for a vacation. I worked in lougheed dental clinic till March until I developed Saitica and was told not to work. I was also going to school to finish my prerequistes from January till end of April. I worked full time and attended full time school. My inspiration to get through it all was you. I know one day you are going to ask me what I was doing while I was pregnant with you and I want to be able to say to you that I continued following my dream and worked real hard to be able to finish my courses so I could apply to uvic to get my social worker degree and be home with you when you are born. I had planned it that way and so I wasn't going to let anything get in the way. I am sure somewhere in your subconscious you will remember the lectures about sociology, religions and philosophy. Pregnancy with you has been a breeze. I didn't have any nausea, or anything and hardly felt anything till about 6 months of pregnancy. Right now it's toward the end of pregnancy and I'm lying in bed because of backpain I am experiencing. Couple days ago I wrote something on Facebook about being pregnant with you and I want to share with you. ---- Officially full term today!  I am so grateful and excited not only for the precious gift I will be soon be given but also for all  the new roles that are also going to be born- mother, father, grandmother, grandfather, uncle and so many wonderful aunties. We started this journey thinking of all the possible things we wanted to teach our daughter, but very quickly learnt that we are the ones already doing all the learning and growing! I have tried my very best to be in a state of 'now' during my entire pregnancy by encapsulating as many feelings of all that  a growing life inside you entitles.   Countless times I have been in a state of 'awe'  and utter contentment. From the first ultrasound that you see a gummie bear size  human being moving inside of you, you quickly grow a deeper and  profound belief of the omniscient Creator.  It has been the one and only time in my life that I have truly felt and been repeatedly reminded that worrying about anything in life is useless, you just need to submit. Undoubtedly, I have never been ever as confident in myself physically mentally or emotionally as I have been in the last 9 months. This period of time has been the only time in my life that I have looked in the mirror every morning and not saw physical flaws that I wanted to change but instead started whole heartily appreciating the complexity and prefect unified function of my purposeful body, and saw nothing but beauty. Truly one of the great  blessings for me has been able to connect with other people. From the countless times being approached by complete strangers giving me extensive advice in the baby aisle of a super market to connecting with friends and family on a deeper level, many of whom I haven't been able to connect for in years! How can I not be grateful for that? The best way I can describe how all this journey has felt  is like I  been riding the back seat of a car, let a greater invisible entity drive and all I have had to do was look at the window  and enjoy all the scenery and it's glory and simply enjoy the ride!  Don't know why I hard the urge to write and share all this at 5:30am , but there you have it my friends!  ---- I have been very active doing my pregnancy with you, almost every night your dad and I go out and eat dinner and walk. Your dad and I want you to know that we love you very much already. We will do our best to be the best parents we could be for you. You will be giving our life a different and profound meaning and for that we are grateful and thrilled. Your dad is at work and will be coming home soon. I made this blog for your now do that I can journal some of the events of your life through words and pictures. Cannot wait to see your pretty face our darling! Mommy Maryam

I am Pregnant!

This is the first post I wrote the min I found out I was pregnant with you Avina on Wednesday October 09 2013 ---- Wow. At 1:58pm on this gorgeous sunny afternoon I found that I have life growing inside of me! I am pregnant!!! I just came home, and I got a pregnancy test and within a minute 2 lines appeared. I'm still shaken, I called Maysam right away,and trying to hold back my tears I asked him when he would be home, and he said at 8pm, I said you need to come home now, he said why, you are getting me worried, I started crying and I told him I'm pregnant and the first thing he screamed "Akheejoon" then I sat on the edge of the bed and I said crying outlook I will always love you and I will always protect you. Sigh, I'm speechless. Wow a baby is growing inside me. It's amazing. My life is forever changed. Thank you God.May you always be our protector! ----